Tuesday, May 12, 2009

my smetchy...

this is my little sister gretchen.  she is 3 years younger than me.  i call her smetch.  
i don't think she knows it, but she's one of my heroes.  smetchy is such a deep, grounded and intellectual person.  every time i talk to her, it makes me think- in a great way.  watching her live life makes me want to be better- the best version of myself.  she is also hilarious.  she's very witty an she's always making us laugh.  
one of my favorite things about smetch is that she's one of the most compassionate people i know.  she feels so much.  if anyone close to her is ever hurting or sad or excited,  gretchen is right there feeling it along with them. 
smetch and i didn't always get along growing up.  we're very different and because of that we butted heads a lot as children.  but we've started getting a lot closer as we've grown into adults.
this past year, we spent a lot of time together at byu.  i was able to be there through some of her hard times and she was there for me in mine.  
i'll never forget a special moment i had with my smetchy a couple of days before i graduated.  i don't consider myself to be a super emotional person, but one night i was overwhelmed by the emotions of graduating and leaving behind a lot of people that i love to move on with the rest of my life.  not only that, but i was also dealing with the craziness of finishing finals, moving out of my apartment and hopping on a plane to ny for a week only to move to st. george less than 24 hours after my return.  
that night,  i drove over to where gretch was hanging out with some friends.  she came out to my car to spend some time with me.  i opened up to her about all of the crazy mixed emotions i was feeling.  she let me cry and she just listened.  she gave me a hug, told me she loved me and told me what i needed to hear- that everything was going to be ok.  
it seems like a simple thing, and i'm sure you can recall more than one occasion when someone did the same for you.  but i'll never forget that special moment with my smetchy.  
i love you, gretch and i'm grateful that you've become one of my favorite, best friends!

5 comments:

  1. Oh, my goodness. That was a good one.

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  2. Bucc,
    I'll be honest, this is the first time I've been on your blog... or anyone's blog for that matter. ha ha. But, I can't tell you how much it means to me that you wrote that stuff about me and you. I've been thinking a lot about you lately and missing my big sister being around and so that post made me cry more than seeing Ben propose to Jennifer in "He's just not that into you". You are one of my bestest friends and I couldn't ask for a better older sister. Thanks for always being someone I could look up to, Becca. I love you to the moon and back. I can't wait to come party with you in st. Geezee.

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  3. oh come on, gretch nothing beats ben proposing to jenn! it wasn't that good. :) i miss you too, sis! get down here. stat!

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  4. aw...I'm all teary eyed now. That makes me so happy to think of you two being there for each other in your moments of need. I love you both!!!! and you're both really pretty : )

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  5. bwahaha...Gretchen's comment made me laugh so hard. I just watch "He's just not that into you" for the first time the other day and I loved that part at the end when Ben proposed to Jennifer. I think I might have cried too--or at least I almost did. I want to marry Jennifer

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